An hour has gone by and I have emailed one person. And I wonder why I can never keep up with all my recent converts. :)
This week I felt the biggest extremes I have ever felt on my mission. On Thursday, Neca told us it was too hard, the changes were too much, etc. So many text messages all at once and I have never felt lower. I cried so much and felt worse than if someone had died. I didn't even know how to cope. I've never felt like that before. It was the hardest few hour. We searched around trying to find her true friends, but no one was answering their phone. I've never felt so alone. I pleaded so much with Heavenly Father and finally after driving around and calling people like mad, we got ahold of someone with a ham radio and were able to get a hold of everyone else. (Forget cell phones up here. It's all about ham.) We texted Neca and went up to see her. Satan had been working on her so much. Brother Stanley gave her a blessing and by the end of the night it was a complete turn around.
Saturday was the most wonderful day. I've never felt that much joy either. Jimmy received the Priesthood right after they were confirmed in Sacrament meeting and it was the most special feeling I've ever felt. Jimmy is already sharing the gospel with his boss (Ammon style) and they both looked so happy. A bunch of Jimmy's family members came. I am trying to make this paragraph longer than the last one, but there are no words. It was just the most special day. An ordinance that seems so simple when you get right down to it has so much power. So much.
I think that's all for this week. I know the Atonement is real and that each of us need it so much. I don't think we understand how much we truly rely on and access it's power. Yesterday I watched a compilation of Bible videos and felt that I am never truly alone. Even when I think I am; even when I feel so alone, He is right there with me. Sometimes I want to take my burdens by myself because I don't want to make Him take on anymore and because I think I can handle it. But I can't. And He already suffered for them. All I have to do is lay them at His feet, and I know that He has the power to lift me up. We are never truly alone and He is always there for us. He wants to help us through each of the storms we go through in life and as we allow Him to and ask for and rely on His strength, this life is possible. As we do those simple things (praying daily, scripture study daily, going to church, serving others, etc.) we can experience true joy, not matter what life chooses to throw at us. I love you all. There is power in keeping our covenants with God (including our promises to do those very simple things mentioned above, which we promised at baptism to do and recommit every week to do as we take the sacrament.) God wants us to be happy. Even when it is really, really hard. And He will help us as we choose to obey the road map He's given us to eternal joy.
Love you all,
Sister Thomson
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